For the past weeks, we’ve been going through healing, starting with acknowledging that we need a healer, knowing the importance of rest, and seeing the importance of forgiveness. I slowly realized that to see change in your life, you need to have a continuous healing process.
But before seeing the change, we need to merely change these things:
Changing our Lenses
Since two weeks ago, I experienced tension headaches or stiffness starting from my upper back crawling to my head. The paralyzing pain disrupted my routines and eventually contributed to my feelings of weakness.
I visited the optometrist and discovered that the eyeglasses I used to wear for three years didn’t match my visual eye grades anymore.
However, I felt hesitant because for me, it’s another unexpected, miscellaneous, and unimportant expense.
When I changed lenses, it’s not easy at first. I’ve had around ten lens changes since I started wearing glasses, but I always have to adjust again with my new frame and grade for a few days.
Adjusting to new lenses causes dizziness and slows down my movements during the initial period. However, changing lenses and frames is the only solution to feel more comfortable and become more efficient in work.
Immediately, this truth sank in: to witness change in your life, you need to change your perspective and ask these questions:
How do you see yourself?
Do you see it as a pointless, worthless creature?
Or do you view it as God’s creation with a purpose in the world?
It’s awkward at first, but now, I can see things clearly, work better, and experience less stress.
Changing our Posture
Last 2016, the doctor diagnosed me with myofascial pain syndrome (MPS) or a chronic pain disorder I feel from my back crawling up to my head (Google can explain better LOL). She pointed out one main reason for pain: my poor posture.
Fast forward to 2018, and I still feel the same (or sometimes, worse) pain. Nothing has really changed because I became too comfortable with my poor posture.
In life, we can also have poor mental or unhealthy spiritual postures or dispositions, and sometimes become comfortable with them. If we feel worthless, we will also treat ourselves that way.
But to see real change in your life, you have to change the way you treat yourself.
I once thought that looking down on myself is an act of humility. I never knew how to stand straight and be confident, because for me, that’s being too proud.
But the truth inversely exposes my self-pity as a manifestation of pride. It’s as if I was saying to God that He made a complete mistake in designing and creating me, and He can’t change it. I have to work hard as a slave to gain His favor.
During the training, I realized that God gave me the right to become His child (John 1:12) as long as I receive and believe in His name. His child!
Currently, it’s my struggle to switch from a mindset of a slave to a posture of daughter. But standing on God’s assurance, I can finally rest and fully depend on Him as my Father, especially when I can’t do things on my own.
Changing our Habits
I discovered recently that my headaches are also results of poor habits: lacking exercise and movement, sitting for long hours, and doing the same things over and over again.
If you want to experience real change in your life, you have to stop doing the things that hurt you.
In my situation, changing habits means setting boundaries and having a balanced lifestyle. I shouldn’t beat myself to work and worry. It also means forgiving and giving myself breaks.
There are habits that hurt and habits that heal. What I’m saying is that the way to change a habit is to form a new one and get rid of another.
Using Pain to See Change in Your Life
Change and healing go together. The process isn’t overnight and takes a whole lifetime here on earth. God will continue stirring up changes, even if they hurt, so that we continue in our healing journey.
I don’t fully agree that the only constant thing in this world is change, because only God is permanent and steadfast.
As long as we believe and rest in Him, we could go through the pains and storms of changes. It’s not always easy, but being willing to accept change in your life with an unchanging God already brings healing.
Just keep the change, heal the pain.